Totally BURNT OUT

It's the first day of the month. First day of school here in the Philippines. It should be a fresh start for everyone but for me, I haven't gotten any better since the year started. It seems that my feet are stuck in my cubicle the whole five months without pulling through for worthwhile activities.
It's funny to think back when I was still a student wishing that time would run fast so that I would get the hell out of overwhelming workload in school. But now that I am already working and earning my own bucks, it makes me ponder how postgraduate life completely changed me. Now, how I wish I will wake up one day worrying nothing but the quizzes in major subjects. I never realize how I truly miss my college life until I saw my cousin preparing her things and getting ready for a new school year to start.
Before, I kept on complaining about being bombarded with lots of homework at the same time cramming for a long exam the next day. However, when I started to work, I found out that it is more stressful to work on things alone in my cubicle (which I call my blue box) with cameras watching my every move and people appraising my performance which sometimes lead me to being too edgy.
Nevertheless, when I was still in a big classroom, wearing my persian blue and white uniform, with 45 of us in the same room, I gain fulfillment for every good works that had been done. There was genuine camaraderie and true companionship that brought out the best of me. Now, I guess, money can't buy personal fulfillment. It's no longer the enthusiasm that makes me get up in my bed early morning but the responsibility that I am bound to as long as I am contracted with the company.
I still crave for more knowledge and wisdom which I think I cannot seek in the small space I have in what I often call aquarium. Perhaps I can only gain more understanding if I set myself free into a bigger world outside ENC/1on1.
I know I'll be missing my job and as well as the people whom I consider friends now -- my students and my officemates.