Sweetest Escape

Finally, my resignation from ENC and 1on1 has been granted to me as well as my request to work part time in GNA. I couldn't describe the happiness I felt when I received a forwarded letter in my inbox last Saturday telling that the request I made from the company was finally granted by our big boss. Yepee! Finally, in three weeks time, I'll be moving out from the big aquarium where I work. But of course, I will still continue learning and teaching English as it has become my passion now.

Though, this would mean lesser bucks in my pocket, I couldn't care less! Freedom to do what I want to do is what matters most to me.

Wouldn't it be great to spend little more time at home and feel the comfort of being away from all the threads of stress I could get in a day by just sitting 8 hours in front of my computer in what I call BLUE BOX? Well, for me it's PRICELESS.

Probably, I'll be missing my friends in my ENC and 1on1. But surely, one way or another, I could still find ways to draw the our lines close

I'll just keep my fingers cross and hope that I'll get much better opportunities once I set myself free from responsibilities I'm bound to follow.

Finally, my resignation from ENC and 1on1 has been granted to me as well as my request to work part time in GNA. I couldn't describe the happiness I felt when I received a forwarded letter in my inbox last Saturday telling that the request I made from the company was finally granted by our big boss. Yeepee! Finally, in three weeks time, I'll be moving out from the big aquarium where I work. But of course, I will still continue learning and teaching English as it has become my passion now.

Though, this would mean lesser bucks in my pocket, I couldn't care less! Freedom to do what I want to do is what matters most for me.

Wouldn't it be great to spend little more time at home and feel the comfort of being away from all the threads of stress I could get in a day by just sitting 8 hours in front of my computer in what I call BLUE BOX? Well, for me it's PRICELESS.

Probably, I'll be missing my friends in my ENC and 1on1. But surely, one way or another, I could still find ways to draw the lines closer.

I'll just keep my fingers cross and hope that I'll get much better opportunities once I set myself free from responsibilities I'm bound to follow.

Kara's Back

My best friend Kara, had a short vacation here in Davao after 6 years since she moved to Manila with her family. Although we have constant communication (Thanks to technology!), it is still a different feeling to see and be with someone that I've not seen for ages. I thought at first, it would be awkward to see her, however, after a minute or so, I was able to loosen up and acted the way I used to when we were still in high school. It was totally nostalgia that I felt when we talked until the wee of hour. I miss my high school life, I miss the fun that I used to grip, and most of all I miss the happiness of being with my good friends.

For a moment I feel ataraxia, when I only thing I had in mind was pure delight of profound happiness.

Now, she's on her way to go back to Manila and I have to go back to my real world again. I hope that I can visit her soon this year and taste the sweetness of real fun.

Totally BURNT OUT

It's the first day of the month. First day of school here in the Philippines. It should be a fresh start for everyone but for me, I haven't gotten any better since the year started. It seems that my feet are stuck in my cubicle the whole five months without pulling through for worthwhile activities.
It's funny to think back when I was still a student wishing that time would run fast so that I would get the hell out of overwhelming workload in school. But now that I am already working and earning my own bucks, it makes me ponder how postgraduate life completely changed me. Now, how I wish I will wake up one day worrying nothing but the quizzes in major subjects. I never realize how I truly miss my college life until I saw my cousin preparing her things and getting ready for a new school year to start.
Before, I kept on complaining about being bombarded with lots of homework at the same time cramming for a long exam the next day. However, when I started to work, I found out that it is more stressful to work on things alone in my cubicle (which I call my blue box) with cameras watching my every move and people appraising my performance which sometimes lead me to being too edgy.
Nevertheless, when I was still in a big classroom, wearing my persian blue and white uniform, with 45 of us in the same room, I gain fulfillment for every good works that had been done. There was genuine camaraderie and true companionship that brought out the best of me. Now, I guess, money can't buy personal fulfillment. It's no longer the enthusiasm that makes me get up in my bed early morning but the responsibility that I am bound to as long as I am contracted with the company.
I still crave for more knowledge and wisdom which I think I cannot seek in the small space I have in what I often call aquarium. Perhaps I can only gain more understanding if I set myself free into a bigger world outside ENC/1on1.
I know I'll be missing my job and as well as the people whom I consider friends now -- my students and my officemates.